New Day

    I have been re-reading Walden lately, and one of the many thing that Thoreau writes about that I have always related to is the sacredness and importance of the morning. The mornings, after a cup of coffee and some time in the bathroom, are always when I feel my best and most productive. The day is new and untarnished, an eternal source of vitality and renewal that shines into our windows each morning.  In the "Where I Lived and What I Lived For" chapter of the book, Thoreau writes:

"The morning, which is the most memorable season of the day, is the awakening hour. Then there is the least somnolence in us; and for an hour at least, some part of us awakes which slumbers all the rest of the day night. Little is to be expected of that day, if it can be called a day, to which we are not awakened by our Genius, but by the mechanical nudgings of some servitor, are not awakened by our newly acquired force and aspirations from within, accompanied by the undulations of celestial music, instead of factory bells...Every man is tasked to make his life worthy of the contemplation of this most elevated and critical hour."

Good advice, well expressed.   I have a little morning poem that I wrote shortly before I read this, so I figured  I would share it.

NEW DAY

Red cup
red lighter
red blanket on my lap
rain in the Sunset
running to the sea

Light from the overcast skies
fills my south facing apartment
South, where my heart lies

I pour a third cup of coffee,
my head still swimming from sleep
The sun shyly slides from behind a cloud
the air here is mild, salty and sweet

I want to release from these city streets
I long to see the stars again
to wander through the trees

Nature is beautiful because it is real
only whats real can approach beauty

We worship the fake:
fake fame, fake money, fake titties
fake TV "Reality" stars

We wonder bars and poison our bodies
trying to turn off the real
Don't think, don't feel,
grasp desperately at shadows and flashing lights

Red Light.

Stop. Think. Breathe.
This is a collective dream.
Lets gaze upon the truth
a new day arrives-look, unafraid
fiery red on all its glory.

Five Year Plan

I just got off working on a Judd Apatow production that is filming in Sonoma and San Francisco. It was my first time working on a big budget Hollywood film and it was pretty exciting to experience the massive scale of production and see star and writer/producer Jason Segel hanging around the office. I was working as a Production Assistant during prep days, and believe me when I say getting this five day shoot going took a lot of prep. Yesterday I showed up on set at 7:00 am and didn't leave the production office in Santa Rosa until 10:30 at night.
Working as a PA, there is often down time between takes with not much to do but hit up craft service and converse with the other PA's and production coordinators. There is a long line of hierarchy on a film set-at the top is the director and executive producer and at the very bottom is the PA, so it's not surprising that a frequent topic of conversation is what else we would like to be doing in the industry. Assistant Director, or AD is common because on set the PA's work for the AD's(plural on big shoots, as in First AD, second AD, second second) and if they work in the office, Production Supervisor or Story Producer.
One other thing I heard from PA's on this shoot looking to fast-track their way into a high paying job is to focus on one thing, and one thing only. In other words, don't bother learning how to operate a camera if you want to be an AD, because the AD will never touch a camera on a film set. If your resume reflects a diverse range of production experience it is perceived as diminishing your chances of getting hired. Apparently, working in several different departments is seen as indecisive. As professionals who work on a lot of these types of high budget film shoots, I have to take their word for it.
To me though, the whole idea is silly: if you love film, and you want to make movies, why would you possibly not want to learn and experience everything there is to know about it? Working on many different aspects of production is not indecisive, it shows a curious mind. A film is like a house-the script is the foundation, principal photography is the framing and editing and post production is the finish carpentry. A home that is based on an uneven foundation will never be stable, like a movie based on a bad script will never become a great film.
My dad is a general contractor, which is sort of like the director of the home building world. The architect is the screenwriter, and it is my dads job to turn the architects blue and white sketches into physically present and aesthetically beautiful home. So it is the directors job to turn a screenplay into a living, breathing work of art, in which case shouldn't the director know all there is to know about building his movie? The Coen Brothers, who have made a couple of my favorite films, often write, direct and edit their own movies. Can anyone say their films suffer because they do more then just direct? It's the control over the full range of the creative process that makes their films unique. Like them, my dad isn't the type of contractor that drives around in a truck and makes sure that everyone is working-he is the type with a hammer in hand, pounding nails or underneath the house soldering together copper pipe. If you were to tell him that general contractors don't touch skill saws he would laugh. It's from him that I have taken my inspiration to be a writer/producer/director/whatever as long as its making movies.
If that means I'm foregoing my chance at a higher paid but ultimately less satisfying job, so be it. Mass track homes will never have the unique feeling of a custom built home, and movies that are produced out of the desire to make the most profit and not to tell the best story will never be the type that remind us of what it is to be human. Shelter building and story telling; Two of our most ancient needs and arts-and I want to know as much as I can about both when the shit goes down.

In honor of Dr José Argüelles.

Humanity has lost a great teacher and guide. José Argüelles, author of the Mayan Factor and many other books, founder of Earth Day and 13:20 natural time, as well as the person who established Dec 21, 2012 as part of the collective consciousness, has died.
Although I never met him personally, his works particularly The Mayan Factor had a strong influence on me and countless others. For more info, check out his website,
www.lawoftime.org
I wrote the following poem today, and while not about Dr. Argüelles directly, I dedicate it in his honor.

Written at the end of Sloat Blvd, staring at an angry windswept sea:

I've watched the waves
eat away
at this once great city
will we too,
abandon out Temples, our Towns
as this 13th and final
Baktun counts down?

The world has been made
unfit
for decent people
to breath deeply-
It's time to retake our society, our sanity
Time to turn slavery into liberty,
to recreate reality.

The sea is rising
the river is swift
He who clings to the shore
shall be torn limb from limb.

But we who kick out into the current and swim?

A new world awaits, where the river meets the sea.


Good luck on your journey Jose.
IN LAK'ECH - I AM ANOTHER YOURSELF

Spring Poem, 2011

It's raining radiation,
the newscaster says it's safe
still it's raining radiation
dripping on my upturned face.

It's raining radiation
on this first day of spring
but I fear the sort of rebirth
that this toxic rain will be bring.

There's fighting in the Middle East
we're going to war again
collateral damage and power grabs
when will it ever end?

The band is still playing
but the ship is going down
still we keep on sailing
far away from solid ground

It's raining radiation
so I try to stay inside
but what kind of life is this
where a man must run and hide?

The sun soon will rise again
growing stronger every day
I just hope we will still be here
to see the ending for the rain.

VMN website and blog.

I am happy to announce the rolling out of a new website for Viral Media, www.viralmedianetwork.com. I will be posting more of my professional blogs here on the VMN website, while continuing to update the news blog with my personal and artistic endeavors.
I just posted a new article on a great shoot I did with two awesome bay area companies, so head over there now and take a look!
http://viralmedianetwork.blogspot.com/

Canyon

From October 9th to 21st of 2010 with a group of 12 fellow traveler I rowed an 18' raft down the Grand Canyon stretch of the Colorado river. The trip was the culmination of almost two years of planning, starting in February of 2009 when my boating companions Jose Hernandez and Lisa Leondis both won permits through a lottery for the same day, a statistical anomaly and incredible turn of luck.
We put in at Lee's Ferry and floated 225 miles to Diamond Creek, where we took out at the Hualapai reservation. The Canyon starts at about 400' deep as we passed under the Navajo Bridge and descends to over a mile down, blocking out the sun and creating a world apart from the rims towering above.


The voyage was both inspirational and challenging, several times bringing me to the brink of my physical and mental limits but in the end it gave me a glimpse of a landscape that has stayed virtually untouched for the last several million years.
There is something about floating by on a raft that puts you in a unique position to enjoy the type of scenery that Canyon offers. Instead of focusing on each steep step, you glide downstream with the steady heartbeat of water, gazing up at the walls of multi-colored rock passing slowly by, appreciating your small place among the vastness.

From my journal: "Every detail is perfection, an arid landscape of minamlist rock and shrub, transfixed in the soaring vertical cliffs. Below, the river grinds away, sometimes quietly, sometimes with an earth shaking roar." Grand Canyon will always remind me of nature's power to simultaneously create and destroy-I am in awe of the place and will always remember the trials and joys of the trip.
For more info and media, go to http://www.grandcanyon2010.com/

Central America, Between Two Worlds.

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Originally uploaded by bbc415

Photo taken on a recent trip through Central America at Lamanai, in modern day Belize. This ancient mask located at the base of the main temple has stared out out on the jungle for the last 2000 years. The ancient Maya, an amalgamation of various indigenous tribes, constructed vast temples and amazing cities throughout Mexico and Central America. The energy the pervades these sites is palpable, climbing these great structures was reserved for high priests who ascended on their hands and knees. This privilege has opened up to any one who cares go as the esoteric mysteries of the past begin to reveal themselves. Rich in history, culture and natural resources while at the same time extremely pour in material possessions and vital infrastructure, Mexico, Belize and Guatemala provided both inspiration and perspective.